Lax Day 1

I have successfully moved back to the lovely La Crosse!!! Today is my first day on my own. No roommate, no dorm life and no pets..haha. I LOVE it. I love being on my own. I did leave behind a lot in Beloit and I am not sure how I feel about the situations at home. Jason and I are dating and I am loving every moment of it. He takes care of me more then my own mother does. He shows he cares. He used the "L" word a couple days before I left and I didn't know how to react. I didn't say it back but I am falling for him. Yeah he is a lot older then I am but I don't see this Age is nothing but a number to me. Wow I def didn't see my life at this point. I am loving every moment of him.

Now my mom knows about Jason and I, and told me she was okay with it. Now that I have left she is throwing this bitch fit and talking so much stuff about me behind my back. I do not understand her what am I suppose to do? I can not keep her happy. I do not want to go home because of her. I want to go back to Beloit to see my friends, family and Jason but not when my mom is acting like this. I am so glad I have moved out. I just need to find a job and things will be a lot better.

I went on an adventure today and found the post office. I was very proud of myself. Haha. I love it here. I need to clean this place but all well I have two weeks to do stuff.

My heart hurts for multiple reasons right now and I don't know what else to do.

I guess this time alone will help me sort my life out. Part of me wants to break up with Jason just so my mom will get off my back but i dont know..............I like him so much

UGH!!! why can't I just be happy? It is like a crime

hating life