It is like a flash

I never thought my life would be in the position it is right now. I am semi happy. lol who would of thought. My mom is finally realizing that she can not control me and Jason is not mad at me....haha. Well more like I am not mad at Jason. Things seem to be looking up for him and I. I just hope they continue that way. I love him! I am going home this weekend to see him and I am so excited! Six weeks with no sex is rough on the body hahahahaha. I did go to the doctor this week and I am now on birth control. Safety first! Not much else is new.

I have decided that life is to short to worry about anything. I have seen so many lives taken way to early that I am not holding back anymore. I am ready to take life at full speed. I only get one shot at my life. I need to learn how to be more outspoken. I need to be honest right upfront. UGH!

I have been hanging out with Toni and I hope our friendship can mend itself. I don't things will ever quite be the same but they can be close. I talked to Josh to so hopefully him and I can get over our awkward stage in our lives. Terrell and I seem to have let go of the past also. He apologized for everything he did to me in high school. All the times he made me cry...haha i was a silly girl. I have not had enough nerve to ask him if he ever did like me but I will ask someday. Kristi and I talk often too which is nice. All these old friends coming back into my life I like it.
But most importantly I miss Kim and Teenie..the two who have stuck by my side through thick and thin.

School sucks! nothing else to say. I want to be done now. I am to busy for my own good.
Beloit = 4 days!!!!!!!!!! I never thought it would be so close! I hope it goes well but I predict the worse.

lovelove