I hate this

So christmas is suppose to be time the time of the year when you spend the holidays with the ones you love. Well it does not seem that way for me. I dislike my mom so much anymore I cant stand it. I don't think I am gonna go home for xmas this year. I think it is best that my mom and I not be around each other this time of the year. She does not understand who I am as a person and she forces me to choose between my family and Jason. I am done. I can not do this anymore and I hope one day she realizes what she has lost.