Tears they come without warning

who am I? what type of person do I look like? Do you not realize that you led me on? A player is someone who leads girls on and then ends it with no particular reason. You say your not playing but let me tell you I knew for awhile now. It still hurts but I guess I will get over it. Why did you put effort into it? Why did you make things so complicated when they didnt need to be? Why did you always hang around me? WHY? I hate ending things that were just to great because in the end there is always one question that never gets answered. The question of why? I really dont know what to do now. Part of me says to cut off all connection with him but other half says give him a chance. Awkward vs more awkward...who knows. Its time like this that I wish I was still playing guys like no other. I always had someone to rebound off of. Now there is no one. It was fun while it lasted but now its done. I sleep in my bed knowing that there is no one now. This is my goodbye to all connected to him. why do I have a feeling something will change? why do I feel like I am fooling myself in the long run? Why do these tears come? Why is this adam all over again? WHY ME?

well not much else to say today. i hurt. i get over it. i cry. i long. I sleep. busy week. spring break 11 days.

fucklife