work work work work...that is all I do anymore. I mean I love the money but I do not like the job anymore due to the boss hitting on me all the time. I hate it. I use to love working there. It made the summer so much more fun but now I just can't wait for the fireworks season to be over. I am only here for so long and I am missing out on good times with my friends.
Kim leaves this weekend for Madison. I am not sure how I really feel about this. I am super excited for her to get a jump start on her college career but then I feel like it is to soon. I have a feeling she is going to go to college and forget about her friends here. I know this won't happen at first because well we won't let it happen. I just hope that further down the path she doesn't forget about us. I feel like college is going to change her the most out of us three. Teenie and I changed but not really. We just grew up and experienced the freedom like everyone else. Kim is going to get all of this but she is in Madison a bigger city and well a totally different environment. I pray she can stay strong.
I have realized that waiting is not worth it anymore. I use to hold on to past relationships and friends but I can no longer due to this. I have to live today for today and not yesterday or tomorrow. I won a very special award from the state of Wisconsin for my volunteer work in prevention and I have no words to say about how honored I am to win an award of this measure. I don't do what I do for myself I do it for the lives that are harmed by the harmful affects of smoking. I want to see change and it will happen just at a slower pace.
Boys....well there are none. I like a few these days but nothing more. I want a serious relationship. Ha that is not going to happen anytime soon. I am going to focus on getting my life together and getting ready to move to La Crosse. I need to focus on me for some time. I might stick around Beloit longer then I hoped but I am not sure.....I hope not.....I need to find that happiness in myself again..it seems to have left me.
but for now I live for today
lovelove
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I don't think when you go to college you change, but you just become more of who you already are and since I was never myself in high school, I might seem like I am going to "change", but I haven't, I am just more willing to express myself more now. And you don't have to worry about anything, I know my limits and am able to control myself and I don't know how I feel about you thinking I am going to forget everyone; sometimes, if you actually believe that something will happen, you'll act a certain way for it to happen and I don't believe that I will lose touch with a lot of people back home.
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